In 2013, I was on a fast for several days and was maybe feeling a bit discouraged. I was sitting in my office, at work, on the dementia unit when a VERY confused patient walked in. This patient could read signs, but didn't know what they meant. In fact, she would read her own name on her door, and have no idea that it was her room or even what she was saying. But on this morning, she walked into my office and when she saw me sitting in my chair she said, "Oh!" as if I had startled her. Then she smiled, walked over a few feet to me, patted me on my head and said, "Fasting is good. The good Lord watches both of you and them. It's all up here (while patting my head)" I was so stunned, I about fell out of my chair. She turned and walked out of my office and continued on her wanderings. I knew that I had just heard the voice of God speaking through a person to me.
Just October, I was feeling very discouraged and that my prayers were hitting the ceiling and bouncing back to hit me in the head. I just felt depressed. I decided to write a letter to God. So I got a very fancy parchment paper and wrote my sorrows and complaints out to the Lord. I didn't feel any better, but I went on to bed and slept just the same.
The next morning, when I got to work and began checking my emails, there was an email from someone I had only met once at a seminar, about six months before and had exchanged emails for networking purposes. She had emailed me to tell me that God had placed me on her heart and she had been praying for me and wanted to let me know that. I knew that it was an email from God and that His Presence was near me. I closed my office door and cried like a baby.
This past week has been very difficult. I have been trying to live by faith, but my faith has been so weak. Yesterday, was probably the lowest point I have been in in many, many years. I cried and cried. I complained to God, I wept, I sobbed, but didn't feel any better. This morning, I was on my way to a friend's house to take care of their dogs, when I saw an old man that I have seen several times, asking for money. Fortunately, I was at a stop light and in the closer lane to him, so I rolled down my window. He hobbled over to me and took my change, then asked, "Man, I'm sorry to ask, but do you have any Tylenol or Ibuprofin? My back is killing me." I told him I did in fact have Ibubrofin, but that I also wanted to pray for him. He agreed and I reached out and took his hand and said a quick prayer. Then the light turned green and I had to pull away. Just as I made the turn, and old family friend messaged me on Facebook. I was unable to read it right then, but just saw the heading, "Just wanted you to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers this morning." Again, I knew it was the Lord sending me an email.
He promised He would never leave us nor forsake us. He is God and He is our Father!!!
